It Would be Nice to Die Today, But...

John Mayer hasn't released a new album yet. His latest album, Sob Rock, was released in 2021. And he tends to release an album every 3-4 years, so there's a high chance he will release a new album this year. What's more exciting is that he's now an independent artist since he no longer signs with Columbia Records. So imagine all the incredible music he'll put out with that much freedom. I have to survive until he finally drops his next album, and probably continue doing so until JM no longer makes music.

Also, JM once said in his radio program, Life with John Mayer, that he purposefully made Sob Rock less lyrically intense. But now he's been putting more energy into songwriting for his next album. He said that sensitive singer/songwriter John Mayer is back, and the next album will be lyrically heavy. So I must keep myself alive until I can listen to that album.

As I mentioned here, I've been a fan of SEVENTEEN for four years now. And I had the privilege of seeing them live in Jakarta back in February. I thought I'd be satisfied after attending their concert—and I was!—but I didn't expect to crave more. I just can't get enough of their incredible live performance. I really want to see them again, and I can't do that if I'm dead.

Besides, there were only 11 out of 13 SEVENTEEN members at that Jakarta concert because Jeonghan was doing his mandatory military service, and Jun was pursuing an acting career in China. However, it's still gonna be a long time until SEVENTEEN is 13 again, cause most of the members will also be serving in the military, with Wonwoo being the second member to enlist last April. I'm already planning to see SEVENTEEN's comeback concert with 13 members, even though I don't know when that will happen. So keeping myself alive, that is.

OH, and SEVENTEEN is currently gearing up for their 10th anniversary comeback, which falls on May 26th! As of the day I'm writing this post, they've released three concept photos and films, each telling different stories that are still interconnected. I'm beyond excited about this comeback cause it's very meaningful, and they're gonna release a full album instead of an EP. All 13 members will be present in the album too, although there's no sight of Jeonghan in the concept photos and films. That's still something to look forward to.

Last December, GMMTV dropped their new series lineup for 2025. Four titles piqued my interest the most: Burnout Syndrome, A Dog and a Plane, Wu, and Ticket to Heaven. Their storylines looked so promising! I genuinely want to see these series come to life, especially with some of my favorite actors playing. Let's not die until they're officially released!

I subscribed to several authors and ongoing fanfics on Archive of Our Own (AO3)! Let me tell you, these AO3 writers are bombs. A lot of them are so talented, you'd think you're reading a literary masterpiece. From the characterization, the way they narrate the story, the witty dialogues, to the romantic scenes, everything is top-notch! That's why I'm so invested in those fanfics, and I'm dying to see how their stories will end. So let's just live.

I have this habit of writing letters emails to my friends on their birthdays. I suck at expressing my feelings verbally, so I use this opportunity to show how much my friends mean to me and how I cherish them a lot. I still want to keep writing birthday letters to my friends, cause apparently I have a lot to say, and I wouldn't be able to write them if I died now.

The other day, I was so bored that I ended up looking at the pictures in my phone gallery. Many of them turned out to be food pictures, which I mostly took when hanging out with my friends. Then it just dawned on me how I love spending time with them. And I think I want to have more of those moments. I still want to laugh with my friends over lunch and take cute photos that I'll never post cause I'm too lazy. I can't do that if I'm dead, can I?

It would be nice to die today, yes, but it turns out I have nicer things to live for. I'm aware that these things are not extravagant. They're rather simple things, but enough to keep me from wanting to end my life.

Well, at least for today.