Day 6 - Single and Happy

I am single right now. I have been for many years actually.

Am I happy about it? Most of the time, yes. Well, maybe not exactly THAT happy, more like I’ve gotten used to it. I’m fine though. It’s just like what John Mayer says in his song, Perfectly Lonely, that being single offers a simple little kind of free. And it’s true, I guess? I can do whatever I want since I only need to take care of myself. Going on a trip with friends? Attending a music concert? Sleepover at a friend’s house? I can just go right away. Yes to freedom!

However, I’m turning 30 in a few years and the expectation to be married becomes more intense. I know, I know. Life isn’t a competition and we shouldn’t compare our lives to others, but sometimes I just can’t help but do that? Many of my friends are already married, some of them even have children. I see them and I think, “Wow, it must feel nice to finally settle down, build a family with the love of your life, and actually have a “home” you can come back to.”

Okay, that was obviously my insecure ass speaking. LOL.

The truth is, I don’t know if I’m ready to tie the knot yet because getting married to someone isn’t always rainbow and sunshine like some people make it seem to be. Of course it’s nice to spend the rest of your life with someone you love, but it needs a lot of works to keep your relationship stable through the years. And I bet it won’t be easy.

So while I’m figuring things out, I guess I’m just gonna try my best to enjoy my single life—happily. I think this is the universe telling me to focus more on my life first. Because how are you gonna build a happy relationship with another person if you're not happy with yourself, right?