Not all people can easily open up about their problems. Some are scared. Some find it very uncomfortable. Some are afraid to appear as an attention-seeker. Some don't want to become a burden to other people. And I'm sure there are still many other reasons I couldn't think of.
So they choose to bottle things up.
I choose to bottle things up.
When things get much uglier, I even tend to push people away. I just.... don't want anyone to know about my struggles. I don't want people to think I'm not capable of handling things on my own. I don't want them see me as a girl who uses her problems to get attention. So I put up a good facade. And somehow it works, I guess. One of my good friends even said that I look so composed, like I have my life all figured it out.
God, if only she knew.
But now I am emotionally exhausted. I'm afraid if I don't start sharing about what's going on in my head, I'll lose myself. I'll lose my sanity. I'll explode. And I don't want that to happen. The good news is that I know my family and friends would like to help if I talked to them. That's why in 2018, I hope I have more courage to open up to people and seek supports from them. I know I'm not alone, I'll just have to try harder to reach out more. I'm not saying it's gonna be easy, but it's worth to try.
So they choose to bottle things up.
I choose to bottle things up.
When things get much uglier, I even tend to push people away. I just.... don't want anyone to know about my struggles. I don't want people to think I'm not capable of handling things on my own. I don't want them see me as a girl who uses her problems to get attention. So I put up a good facade. And somehow it works, I guess. One of my good friends even said that I look so composed, like I have my life all figured it out.
God, if only she knew.
But now I am emotionally exhausted. I'm afraid if I don't start sharing about what's going on in my head, I'll lose myself. I'll lose my sanity. I'll explode. And I don't want that to happen. The good news is that I know my family and friends would like to help if I talked to them. That's why in 2018, I hope I have more courage to open up to people and seek supports from them. I know I'm not alone, I'll just have to try harder to reach out more. I'm not saying it's gonna be easy, but it's worth to try.
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